Little K

Things happen for a reason and the universe imposes a beautiful order on our existence. You have helped me look at those things differently, even more clearly than I did previously. I have found that to be true of many things in my life through you. I can see how hopelessly and bitterly hatred shaped my world, and how love can change everything.

About a year after I met you, I sometimes catch myself smiling at myself in the midst of my sudden waking up in the middle of the night, grasping at the threads of my dream of you, and every time I catch a glimpse of myself, I smile a ridiculous silly smile, nothing elegant. I know those nights when I cannot sleep is because I’m probably awake in your dream. My love for you spills over into an unprecedented love for myself. The awesome thing about my feelings for you is that I find myself loving every moment more than I did before. My life is all gratitude. I’m grateful, more than ever, for the fact of your existence.

Having you in my life for almost a year is something I will always treasure. I want you to know that you have given me a lot of things, even if you don’t realize it. Happiness, laughter, passion. You have given me a lust for life and for love. You have shown me what it means to care for someone so much. I know that I will always remember our year together with fondness. I will remember our sharing stolen moments in time. Above all things, I only wish you happiness and love, to be at peace with yourself and to be true to who you are.

In every passing moment where we find ourselves in the same place, I can only say thank you for reawakening me, my heart and my soul. That’s what you have given me. That’s what I hope to give to you too as long as I can. Thank you for helping me become the person I am today, I just wish things could last forever.

Loving is about trusting feelings and taking chances, about losing and finding happiness. Sometimes I am still struck by the fact that loving is a good thing which always comes back in a form of one’s existence. The idea of us being together is one thing I will always give it a good try to. Thank you for the love and companionship. I love you, my Pocky Strawberry.


February 29, 2012
― A Realist Dreamer